Technocrazy.net

http://www.technocrazy.net is a website started in 1 December 2008 as an university project. It is the website about all the latest and the best digital products available in the market. The website had many unique visitors based entirely on the search engine keywords. The rankings of the website has increased drastically in a small period of time considering the visitors. The site has reviews on computer products and new products. The design of the website is made very simple and user friendly. The information about the product mainly contains the features of the product which helps the visitors get to know what the product actually does. It helps in comparing other products on the spot. Images and descriptions adds to the details.

Moonlightms.com

http://www.moonlightms.com is my personal website. I created this website three years ago to practice my designing skills. Then i had to work mostly on CSS, HTML, ASP & PHP so i used it entirely to practice my skills. It kind of did help me a lot. Also it helped me in designing graphics and layout. The current layout i created it in the month of December last year and it is still active and i am not going to chance it so soon. The provider is supervision computers but their package is pretty expensive so i am soon going to transfer my domain name to some other good web hosting services. I am looking forward for lunarpages.

Welcome to hell.

I just wanted to say something. I don't really want to bother you but i don't know why i think you are the one i should say. Well, right know i am pretty angry on myself because whats happening to me. Its 4.17 am and i didn't sleep for one 4 seconds since 9pm yesterday. Before yesterday it was worst already. My entire body is getting jerked, i get kind of shocked as soon as i fall asleep right in that second. My neck, hands and legs get jolts. Sudden Uncontrolled movement of body parts. I have really had enough so whatever happens i am going to accept it. Its my spirit, its my physical body and i control them. If my stomach don't want to digest anything then let that be, who cares if that kills me, my stomach is going to burn. So if my stomach don't care then why should i? If my brain gives my body jerks and if my brain don't want me to sleep then why the hell should i even try to sleep ? Let that me, i will get online in yahoo rooms and pass the night. and if that kills me then who cares, my brain is going to burn. So if my brain does not care then why the hell should i? My granny is awake and i told her i don't care anymore let anything happen to me. i am going to die soon. I am not quitting this. I am "Accepting" whatever happens to me. Because here is the twist. There is a lot to what happens to me. But even my dad and mom dont believe whatever is happening to me. Every time they are always like a big "WHY", why and just "WHY" all such things are happening to you? At this age i am going through all these things. Which, usually people get at the age of 55+. Moreover, while typing this, i don't know why the hell only my little finger of the left hand is getting sprain? Weird, may be something is wrong with my brain, tumor, blood clotting or something. so fine let that be, i don't care. It my brain does not want to function properly then why the hell should i force it by going to doctors and eating drugs ? I went to so many doctors each give different medicines without even listening to entire history. I didn't take any panic disorder drugs for 4 or 5 days and i started getting that obsession feeling in my heart. Light panic attacks, i missed that girl i loved so much. My parents are telling me to get a CITI scan of brain to see whats in it. May be i am paying for my sins, or may be its because i asked got for suffering for safety, protection and happiness of the girl i loved who has an incurable disease and for my grand mother and for all those innocent, poor people on streets i ever saw. Well, i am sure it is because of me asking to god. But, the only thing is i don't really want to waste money in all this and time in thinking about why such things always happens to me. I don't know exactly but i know i must have sinned a lot as everyone does as those 10 commandments are way to impossible to follow... Ah...i just got a stroke on the left side of my brain. I am in hell. May something bless me. I am going to DIIIEEEEEEEEeeeeee.

Twist

My next visit to psychiatrist is scheduled on 20 this month but hell no i am having so much twisting and uncontrolled movements of my hands, legs, neck, head and twisting of my entire body. I feel like visiting him early but each visit is just so expensive that i don't feel like going to him. I will have to go on with medicines and see what happens ahead until 20 when i will tell him finally. What i know is that its one of the side effects of consuming too much drugs. Those psychological and neurological medicines are causing this new thing in me. Its so scary and you cannot even sleep if you get this symptom.

Now whats this ?

I have gone through many weird kind of suffering. Its early morning right now and before one hour or so as i was sleeping i heard a loud boom in my brain (sound of a bomb going off) and then for few seconds i became paralyzed, i couldn't move my hands, legs, neck etc. Then again as i tried to sleep i heard a loud boom not from my ears but inside my brain, i could feel it and again for few seconds i became paralyzed. It happened to me for 4 times and i got up finally. It is so weird, and its something new. It never happened to me before but since one hour ago.

Side-effects ?

Some neurological and psychological medicines are just not suitable for us. There were many side effects due to intake of those medicines. But psychiatrist managed to get rid of it by changing the prescription and reducing the doses. In the end everything was fine and good. But side effects included uncontrolled astral projection kind of thing, sleep paralysis where my brain used to get completely shut down for a second and i could feel it. Then twisting and uncontrolled movements of my fingers, hands, legs, neck and entire body. Entire body used to get jerked sometimes while sleeping. The last one is still their but i hope i get rid of it too. Cant believe falling in love can be so deadly.

How to overcome panic attack?

One technic to overcome panic attacks is to hold your breath as long as you can and then release. It works, well in my case at least. When you get panic attacks you breath heavily. So i try to hold my breath as long as i can and then release it and then continue doing it. Other important thing that you can do is to meditate. Its a good practice for both your mental and psychical and for panic attacks. If you do it regularly along with your prescribed medicines then you will boost your recovery process. Another thing which is important to overcome depression is to be indulged in some activity as long as you can. Be busy and your chances of getting panic attacks will reduced drastically as you wont be ideal to get an attack.

Funny

It is so funny that my psychiatrist always come up with the same topic each time i visit him. I feel like laughing as it is so amusing and i am like always smiling. But the main problem is he then thinks that i am alright and that i am improving, which is totally wrong. I just dont know how to tell him on face to please stop talking about the same topic each time. Weird.